Weigh in Day

I got up early and weighed in at Weight Watchers this morning. I had a great week other than the pizza episode the other day. I lost 3.6 pounds this week, I think that is fantastic progress especially since I haven't been able to exercise at all with the vertigo I have been struggling with. It was a great meeting today. We talked about how it is important to get all of our Good Health Guidelines everyday. I decided I am going to really focus on getting those in each day this week. All of my fruits and veggies, water, healthy oils and dairy.

There was a great Groupon last week for a local Gym. $45 and you get three months of membership including all classes at the gym. I am very excited to get up and moving again. I have always done well when I have had a gym membership and this one has a daycare so that is a huge bonus!

Be kind to each other!!

Eater's Remorse

I have been kicking ass this week! I have stayed within my points, eaten all of my fruits, veggies, dairy and healthy oils and drank all of my many glasses of water. Since I have been stuck at home I am in a very controlled environment. Nothing comes into my home that I cannot eat. Well today it happened. My Dad brought my daughter out for pizza before her dance class and they brought leftovers home. I put the leftovers into the fridge and swore to myself that I wouldn't touch them. I hardly even thought about them the rest of the night. But then I put the kids in bed and my hubby left for work. I still had 9 points left for today and figured it out that I could eat two slices of pizza and still be within my points. I ate the two slices and then lost complete control and went on to demolish the 4 remaining bread sticks. I do have my extra weekly points that I haven't used yet but I feel like it was such a waste. I didn't need to eat those bread sticks and I have been doing so well. It is strange when I get into this frame of mind where I want to eat something and I suddenly don't care that I shouldn't have it. Within 10 minutes of eating the offending food I wish I could take it all back. I am sick of this cycle of binging, I don't know what is going through my head in these moments. I guess tomorrow is a new day and I just move on.

Be kind to each other!

The official "Before" photo

Well, here it is! I cannot believe I am posting these photos on here but in order to know where I am going I have to be able to see where I've been. I will update with photos monthly but here is the dreaded before photo. Me at 240 pounds, feel free to run screaming from your computer with the urge to stick knives in your eyes!!

Those darn BLT's

At Weight Watchers they use a acronym for all of the "Bites, Licks and Tastes," that enter our mouths each day. It is important to write and count points for every BLT throughout the day. I am a spoon licker, I dish something out and then lick the spoon. I make my kids something to eat and then I take a bite. I have to wonder if all of these BLT's throughout the day aren't adding up. It seems harmless enough to just take a taste of something, but when you are tasting one of everything throughout the day that starts to add up....on my thighs.
I have been stuck in my house for over a week because I have been suffering from vertigo. Apparently I had a virus that caused damage to my inner ear and this is making my world spin. The weather has been gorgeous here lately and I am stuck inside. I want to get out and move my body. I want to hike in the woods and play outside with my kids. It is hard to not sit here and eat all day out of boredom. I start physical therapy on Wednesday so hopefully I will start to see some improvement! Until then I am just trying to stay within my points for the day and hopefully the lack of activity won't hurt my reading on the scale to much!

Be kind to each other!

Back in the Saddle

Since I have struggled with my weight my entire life I am growing very tired of the yo yo dieting scene. Since having my daughter 5 years ago my weight has gotten completely out of control and I haven't been able to get it under control. There is a huge mental aspect to losing weight and something seems to be missing for me. I don't know if there is something about being fat that makes me feel safe or if I hold on to the fat for other reasons. But every attempt at losing weight as gotten me down about 20 pounds and then I "fall off of the wagon," and gain it all back and then some.
I rejoined Weight Watchers a couple of weeks ago and am making a serious effort to lose this weight. My joints ache, my head hurts everyday, I am always sick and tired. I want to keep up with my kids and be sexy for my husband. I am tired of hiding from people when I see them out in public because I am embarrassed of how fat I have become.
I have seen others have success with blogging about their weight loss so I thought I would give it a try. This might help me work through some of the emotional issues I have with losing weight. I am not big on talking about my weight with people in my life so I guess blogging to a bunch of strangers is the next best thing.

My highest weight was 240 pounds. I am down to 225.6 as of right now. I will weigh in weekly on Saturdays and record my weight here. Oh and I am 5;7" in case anyone is keeping track .